“Eternal subordinates of the servant of God”
“Cry Your Soul"
“Eternal Subordination of the Servant of God” is a reflection on the nature of dependence, submission, and the loss of personal freedom within the context of spiritual and existential belonging. This concept addresses the questions of inner enslavement and the need for endless service to a higher order, where the line between voluntary humility and forced submission is blurred. In this state, the individual loses their identity, dissolving into a role either willingly assumed or imposed by fate or circumstance.
Submission to a higher power demands the abandonment of one’s self, the erasure of personal desires and ambitions. Eternal service becomes a mechanism where the individual ceases to exist as a person and instead becomes a function—a component of a larger system, stripped of the right to err or doubt. Every step within this submission entails a loss of freedom, yet also brings a sense of order and security. It is a paradoxical state: surrender offers peace, but it deprives existence of meaning as a free act.
Eternal service has no beginning or end. It is an endless process of subordination, where the individual becomes part of a structure that transcends their understanding. In this cycle, the individual remains a perpetual prisoner of the search for meaning and salvation, which always slips away. Each act of service only reinforces the impossibility of achieving fulfillment and generates more questions about one’s essence and significance.
This service erases not only will but also the individual self. The image of the servant becomes blurred and multifaceted, devoid of personal identity, refracted through the lens of their role. The overlapping faces in the imagery convey the idea of dissolved subjectivity—the individual becomes a set of functions, reflections, and shadows of others or divine intentions. Their face no longer belongs to them; it dissolves into an endless sequence of duties and rituals.
Service is seen as the only path to salvation, yet also as eternal punishment for mere existence. The individual finds themselves in a state where abandoning service is impossible, and continuing it is unbearable. It is an existential trap, where every choice reduces to the repetition of the same act of submission, each time hoping for redemption that never arrives.
Despite obedience and the perpetual fulfillment of their role, the sense of divine presence or higher meaning remains elusive. The servant loses the ability to discern whether they are truly serving something elevated or merely following the blind order of things. The question “Where are you?” directed toward the higher power goes unanswered, turning into a silent cry that fades into the void.
“Eternal Subordination of the Servant of God” explores the delicate boundary between humility and self-loss, between salvation and punishment. It is a meditation on how service can become a form of escape from personal freedom, yet never alleviates existential anxiety. Eternal submission becomes not an act of faith but an attempt to escape chaos, seeking stability in ritualized order that ultimately never leads to the desired liberation.
Prayer to be said while kneeling
God, my savior, you are the source of life and immortality. Our Lord Jesus Christ sacrificed himself, put himself on a painful cross and shed his holy blood for the sins of the village. God, our merciful Father, everyone and I deserve to know and not forget the mystery of this great love of yours and your only begotten Son. Yes, how many times have I insulted you and made you bitter, my Lord, by my detestable actions and intentions; Among my evils, I would not mention the mercies and mercies that you have done for me. I am drowning in sins, but you always give me your mercy: bread, water, fruits, air, warmth and joy of my heart, and sometimes my broken soul turns to you for my upliftment, sometimes I give up from my sins like a troubled sea, to whom did you turn? Oh Lord, to whom shall I cry? To whom should I turn my gaze and pray for my sins? If not for you, Lord my God; I fall like a cow, so don't neglect my repentant soul due to weaknesses, and the one who is in the house of eternal sins. Yes, Lord, Lord, I will thank you with tears for your mercies, I will sing praises to you. You are my life, my joy and my eternal love, and when I leave you, the darkness covers me, and the sadness that leads to death fills my heart, and my soul grieves. God, my savior! Jesus, Son of God, I am worthy to know the love of your holiness and give me the grace of your holy spirit, so that it may set me on the path of the little faith and soul of the above sheep: teach me, a sinner, to do your will with humility and love, and burn in the fire in the long-suffering the desire of mine. , and warm my heart like a wise iron, and renew it, and cleanse it of my sins, so that I may sing to You with joy: Hallelujah, Hallelujah, Hallelujah.